What's the point to live anymore?

I start posting this follow by tears,loneliness,and feeling like I wanna suicide.I just hope and never stop,but the results are just the same.Why everyone treats me like this? I don't even know what had I done to them.I'm living in this sad world of mine since my parents decided to divorce .Sometimes, I can't stop thinking of them.Did they loved me as I did? Did they ever think about me? Surely nope~I rather die or get killed by them. I don't wanna live like this.Nobody wants too ,but this is what we called it FATE.In school,house,everywhere...I had been ignored by them.They used to make fool on me.I have feelings that maybe you guys can't even feel the same as I feel...I might be happy in front of my family,friends,siblings...but it just a fake smile of me :) I forced myself to smile,to cover the sadness  because it might bother you.But I thought it wrongs.They never treat me well.I just wanna end immediately.

THE TRUTH BEHIND THE LIES

The moment when I told you that I have moved on,I was lying.I told my friends that I have moved on,I told them I have forgotten all about you and I have no feelings for you at all but everything I told them wasn't true.After all this time I was just pretending and hasn't been a day that I stopped thinking about you.It's always you on my mind and it hurts.I really miss you but I'm afraid to make a call because maybe I would be a bother.It scares me to think that you don't wanna talk to me. Even though we are not together anymore,and how things have changed so drastically but my feelings for you have always been real.I still love you and always will.

SOMETHING OUT OF MY MIND

It's been ages without writing a post .Surprisingly,I have a strong desire to write again.I'm grateful for all the suffering I have gone through,since it's made me appreciate everything so much more.Things maybe different now,but while I'm busy going through the new chapter of life,I'm still looking back to the previous chapters and it brought me into tears without even realizing it.