What's the point to live anymore?

I start posting this follow by tears,loneliness,and feeling like I wanna suicide.I just hope and never stop,but the results are just the same.Why everyone treats me like this? I don't even know what had I done to them.I'm living in this sad world of mine since my parents decided to divorce .Sometimes, I can't stop thinking of them.Did they loved me as I did? Did they ever think about me? Surely nope~I rather die or get killed by them. I don't wanna live like this.Nobody wants too ,but this is what we called it FATE.In school,house,everywhere...I had been ignored by them.They used to make fool on me.I have feelings that maybe you guys can't even feel the same as I feel...I might be happy in front of my family,friends,siblings...but it just a fake smile of me :) I forced myself to smile,to cover the sadness  because it might bother you.But I thought it wrongs.They never treat me well.I just wanna end immediately.

THE TRUTH BEHIND THE LIES

The moment when I told you that I have moved on,I was lying.I told my friends that I have moved on,I told them I have forgotten all about you and I have no feelings for you at all but everything I told them wasn't true.After all this time I was just pretending and hasn't been a day that I stopped thinking about you.It's always you on my mind and it hurts.I really miss you but I'm afraid to make a call because maybe I would be a bother.It scares me to think that you don't wanna talk to me. Even though we are not together anymore,and how things have changed so drastically but my feelings for you have always been real.I still love you and always will.

SOMETHING OUT OF MY MIND

It's been ages without writing a post .Surprisingly,I have a strong desire to write again.I'm grateful for all the suffering I have gone through,since it's made me appreciate everything so much more.Things maybe different now,but while I'm busy going through the new chapter of life,I'm still looking back to the previous chapters and it brought me into tears without even realizing it.

My workday will go along quite well..so well,in fact,that I'll probably be waiting for the shoe to drop.Well,don't.I've paid my dues and done well.It's time to collect.Relax.Enjoy..It's not just romance my feeling..it's passion..this particular person has got every part of me on high alert..I'm fascinated,enthralled and hoping to get know them  even better..Take a deep breath..I am confidence enough~I love to stay in bed..but I can't--too much to do and too litle time..I can,however get home at decent hour and take up where I left off..Leave the video on pause.

Dedicated to ANONYMOUS~

Being nice to someone I dislike doesn't mean I'm  fake.It means I am  mature enough to tolerate my dislike towards them...why I'm wasting my time getting hurt by someone,when there's someone else out there waiting to make me happy :)  think before you say something hurtful to someone else.It may look like they're ok but they're not..words are more powerful than you think...if you tell the truth..you don't hve to remember or mentioning about the pass...it just like @%^*~)%# I am between the devil and the blue sea right now~~~one thing you should know that I'm typing this with my middle finger!

shut up and feel it~

I've been through heartache and have had my heart broken to 1000 pieces..most of which i'm putting back together ..look at the better things in the life..sometimes I need to stop analyzing the part..stop planing the future..stop trying to figure  the crap things...stop deciding with my mind what I want my heart to feel..sometimes..I just have to go with______??? whatever happens..just let it be..i have to forgive and forget but there comes a point when i'm getting sick and tired of letting people hurt me that i gain this whole fuck world attitude..yeahh thats where I am..it hurts knowing someone that i care the most(family and friends)..they have time for anything but not me..and yeahh..i never regret anything that i said because at one time it was exactly what i wanted.HAHAHAHA...and i won't let those fucker close enough to hurt me...even he is my dad! i hate him..don't ask me why..LOL

AGAIN and AGAIN

It is only with the heart that one can see it rightly..what is essential is invisible to the eye..love are just like dream that alive when we meet..it may comes true..today..yeahh still wondering how to stay at home and have a life...firstly..i thought i've got games,videos,and interesting nest and an endless repertoire of stories.. hope can hang out with my friends...but i can't..well i didn't said that i refuse about this..it just because.i need to be alone sometimes.last thursday..i got the urge to stick close to home..well my focus turn to siblings and neighbours..and they could provide me to meet some delightful and i dont't refuse any invitations from them.yeahh quite fun...but problems still messed up in my head..so..yeahh this is me....