shut up and feel it~

I've been through heartache and have had my heart broken to 1000 pieces..most of which i'm putting back together ..look at the better things in the life..sometimes I need to stop analyzing the part..stop planing the future..stop trying to figure  the crap things...stop deciding with my mind what I want my heart to feel..sometimes..I just have to go with______??? whatever happens..just let it be..i have to forgive and forget but there comes a point when i'm getting sick and tired of letting people hurt me that i gain this whole fuck world attitude..yeahh thats where I am..it hurts knowing someone that i care the most(family and friends)..they have time for anything but not me..and yeahh..i never regret anything that i said because at one time it was exactly what i wanted.HAHAHAHA...and i won't let those fucker close enough to hurt me...even he is my dad! i hate him..don't ask me why..LOL