My workday will go along quite well..so well,in fact,that I'll probably be waiting for the shoe to drop.Well,don't.I've paid my dues and done well.It's time to collect.Relax.Enjoy..It's not just romance my feeling..it's passion..this particular person has got every part of me on high alert..I'm fascinated,enthralled and hoping to get know them  even better..Take a deep breath..I am confidence enough~I love to stay in bed..but I can't--too much to do and too litle time..I can,however get home at decent hour and take up where I left off..Leave the video on pause.

Dedicated to ANONYMOUS~

Being nice to someone I dislike doesn't mean I'm  fake.It means I am  mature enough to tolerate my dislike towards them...why I'm wasting my time getting hurt by someone,when there's someone else out there waiting to make me happy :)  think before you say something hurtful to someone else.It may look like they're ok but they're not..words are more powerful than you think...if you tell the truth..you don't hve to remember or mentioning about the pass...it just like @%^*~)%# I am between the devil and the blue sea right now~~~one thing you should know that I'm typing this with my middle finger!

shut up and feel it~

I've been through heartache and have had my heart broken to 1000 pieces..most of which i'm putting back together ..look at the better things in the life..sometimes I need to stop analyzing the part..stop planing the future..stop trying to figure  the crap things...stop deciding with my mind what I want my heart to feel..sometimes..I just have to go with______??? whatever happens..just let it be..i have to forgive and forget but there comes a point when i'm getting sick and tired of letting people hurt me that i gain this whole fuck world attitude..yeahh thats where I am..it hurts knowing someone that i care the most(family and friends)..they have time for anything but not me..and yeahh..i never regret anything that i said because at one time it was exactly what i wanted.HAHAHAHA...and i won't let those fucker close enough to hurt me...even he is my dad! i hate him..don't ask me why..LOL

AGAIN and AGAIN

It is only with the heart that one can see it rightly..what is essential is invisible to the eye..love are just like dream that alive when we meet..it may comes true..today..yeahh still wondering how to stay at home and have a life...firstly..i thought i've got games,videos,and interesting nest and an endless repertoire of stories.. hope can hang out with my friends...but i can't..well i didn't said that i refuse about this..it just because.i need to be alone sometimes.last thursday..i got the urge to stick close to home..well my focus turn to siblings and neighbours..and they could provide me to meet some delightful and i dont't refuse any invitations from them.yeahh quite fun...but problems still messed up in my head..so..yeahh this is me....

I'm FOOL

Day by day...week by week..time by time...i'm still curious..what the hell is going on with me? well..i just want to beloved...but i don't have anyone..i just love myself..it's not  weird...but..*sigh*...sometimes i cry...sometimes i laugh with the fake smile...no one realise it...school gonna open already...just hope my unlucky year will change when the 2012 comes...head fulled with problems...heart full with grudge...and all full with pains! i'm not stupid...everybody not stupid..but i know i can success if i work hard...but i hate when someone forcing me to do something that i don't like.. i meann i didn't said that i hate it the mostt. i just need time to make it..and then i will do it.. but they won't understand....all of this give me a lot of pressure..i was like..''grrrr!i'm going crazy!suicide is the best thing'' but ..hmmmm i'm pitty with my family...they supports me... always and always.. next year i am PMR candidate..  i hope i can score 8A..Everyone hope like that too... i will try my best....study..and sometimes enjoy with friends...well actually i got an awesome friends..THE BAD STRICT...actually the group's got 4 members....but know... my angel(pip) already join it..it was so fun...sometimes i want to share my problems with them..but i can't..i like to kept it..and problems change to grudge..auuuuhhhh!when i talk about grudge..it reminds me to that BITCH!everyone say i have to respect her as my step fucking damn mother!are they stupid? she the one who doesn't respect me...grrr! stop it~ just hope no troubles anymore!i'm tired of it...

It Hurts The Most

I hope someone will understand about me..it's really hurt when we didn't get what we wanted for.. i think it's very useful for me....i'm crying inside and nobody knows it..but,me! every night..just wish and hope...i can die soon.. it's about 4 years i've been through all of this...people always can see me smile..but did they know? between the smile..my heart hurts a lot! i can't stand with it anymore..everyday..i'm frustrated..remember all those craps things...my life are just SUCK!!!!.. full with pains,tears,grudge...but what can i do..just sit alone... cry..cry and cry...no one get it right? yeahh! i know.. i always makes a lot of trouble...i don't know..sometime i feel..i don't have family,friends..even i have them..i didn't wish to born in this world..no one can make me happy :( you guys think that i'm happy.. you guys thought it wrong.. it just a fake smile!fake!fake! i'm SAD! 4 YEARS GUYS! can you guys imagine that.. family problems,and other else..i wish i don't hve a father.he are just suck!holly shit!what? you guys wanna say I AM A RUDE DAUGHTER?..no i'm not! he doesn't care about me for 5 years..didn't call me,ask about me,meet me...and he just did nothing..like he don't hve a daughter...how sad am i...this is the worst thing for me! i hate him! i will never ever forgive him until my heart stop beating...i can't accept him in my life anymore...this is what we called FATE.. my life full with KARMA..yeah i know everyone hates KARMA..but my life ofthen with it..SO i think it doesn't matter...and thanks GOD for giving me the  pretty angel..my mom.. she always support me..but sometimes she kinda annoying..yeahh i admit it..friends are just like my siblings.. but all of them didn't know my problems!no one know. and no one will understand.. because they won't understand...i hope my life will get better....just hope~

Thegirlname PIPPA

You are my good friend..you are like stars.I don't always see them,but I know they're always there.You always brighten my life..I'll always be beside you until the very end wiping all your tears..always being your best friend and sometime bieng your sister  ♥ ..I'll smile when you smile..feel all the pain the pain you do..if you cry a single tear.. I PROMISE I'll cry too..I hope our friendship will last 4 eva and eva..You are my true friend..You laughs at my funny stupid stories even when they're not so good and sympathizes with my troubles even when thye're not so bad..I'll always live for the nights... I can't remember and the friend I'll never forget..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH PIPPA PETROVA MIDDLETON GRIMMIE SALVATORE a.k.a sister and best friend..

My Angel

She's beautiful right? what? cute? yeahh..she's really cute..her name is DIANA a.k.a PIPPA MIDDLETON...yeahh my awesome sister..she is a kind girl.. thanks God for giving me this gorgeous angel...i love her so much..she is my besties 4eva...she always helped me when i'm in trouble...i don't know what else i'm gonna  say..i just don't wanna lose her...both of us were kinda RELATED :P hahahaha.. she always make me laugh..and she can't stop typing her fav word...'LOL'  ..she likes to play guitar..well i'm kinda jealous with her..she was so talented... she has an awesome voice... like TAYLOR SWIFT.... ahahahah... i love her long,straight,shine hair too..when i look at her picture... it remind me to BELLA(kristen stewart) in TWILIGHT's movie..i don't know why..haha n thats it... actually i got more thing to say... but.. ahhaahah i don't know..only that i can say.. I HEART YOU SO MUCH!

DEATH 1

People always say...'i hope i will live longer in this world'..but me...hmm..i don't hoping for that.. i hope my death will coming soon.. everyday,life full with pain..tear... facing all this alone..without anyone...i've to take care of me somehow..everyone doesn't know about me..my fate,my life..it just like erghh! SUCK!everyday,everynight...the sun and the moon will acompany me :( everyone can see i smile..but did u noticed it? it just fake..it's a force smile...sometime i had a KARMA..i hate it...