I'm FOOL

Day by day...week by week..time by time...i'm still curious..what the hell is going on with me? well..i just want to beloved...but i don't have anyone..i just love myself..it's not  weird...but..*sigh*...sometimes i cry...sometimes i laugh with the fake smile...no one realise it...school gonna open already...just hope my unlucky year will change when the 2012 comes...head fulled with problems...heart full with grudge...and all full with pains! i'm not stupid...everybody not stupid..but i know i can success if i work hard...but i hate when someone forcing me to do something that i don't like.. i meann i didn't said that i hate it the mostt. i just need time to make it..and then i will do it.. but they won't understand....all of this give me a lot of pressure..i was like..''grrrr!i'm going crazy!suicide is the best thing'' but ..hmmmm i'm pitty with my family...they supports me... always and always.. next year i am PMR candidate..  i hope i can score 8A..Everyone hope like that too... i will try my best....study..and sometimes enjoy with friends...well actually i got an awesome friends..THE BAD STRICT...actually the group's got 4 members....but know... my angel(pip) already join it..it was so fun...sometimes i want to share my problems with them..but i can't..i like to kept it..and problems change to grudge..auuuuhhhh!when i talk about grudge..it reminds me to that BITCH!everyone say i have to respect her as my step fucking damn mother!are they stupid? she the one who doesn't respect me...grrr! stop it~ just hope no troubles anymore!i'm tired of it...